11th Entry

Well, It has been a while since I have written on my blog. My entries are alittle more prone to the "stream of conscience" style of writing so don't expect it to be all understandable. I was going to put some pictures of halloween up, but I'm writing this from work and I don't have those pictures available on my work computer. I'll post those in a couple of days. I have been thinkng lately about what makes me happy and others happy and so for and so on. I think that often I am happy when I am doing good things ie) reading the scriptures, going to church. I don't know what makes other people happy in particular. I sometimes go on dates thinking what would make me happy or what would they really like to do. Nowadays, I feel like I need to go on dates that are more real-me dates. Allow me to explain. I've been thinking about going to my favorite places with people or playing with my sister's dog or going to see my sister. Going shopping, making dinner, going to sporting events etc. I think that this is better than the movie, dinner, putt putt date. Mainly, I think this is so because it allows the other person to see me in a variety of different circumstances with different people. I think that this is wise because it reminds me of some talks or something that I've heard authorities speak about.(sorry about that being so vague). The other reason that I like these types of dates is because I can relax and be myself while still enjoying the simple pleasures in my life(playing with a dog, eating icecream, walking, etc). I've also been thinking about how I can not be a burden to others and about how I can improve upon myself. It is difficult to be happy sometimes and I think that is normal. I like being around my friends. I kinda sympathize with that song that says "that he sleeps when all of his friends are around him, cuz that's when he feels safe" or somethin like that. I started to practice a song with Gabe and a few wonderful girls in the ward. I like it alot. It reminds me of High School choir when I sang tenor for a year and then figured out that my voice was better suited to a baritone or bass line. I like girls that sing, or play. It is attractive. It makes me want to learn a couple of good songs on guitar, so maybe I will. The problem with that is finding the right 2 songs that will be a pleasure to learn and easy/good enough to want to play them for others. I wore my grandma blanton's slippers yesterday that she made for me. They were awesome as usual and I'm glad that people didn't try to pick on me for them. I've started sleeping in my sweatpants again and it seems to be a little more comfortable even if I am a tid bit warmer than usual. I have 2 tests that I need to take before wednesday, but they should be pretty relaxed. I feel like I'm in limbo sometimes with people, but at least I'm with them. I can't help but wonder how my experiences right now are going to lead me to where I want to be in the next couple of years, but I'm persistant in my push forward in my life. I hope that you have fun reading some of my thoughts and maybe gaining some insights to that kid called badger. peace!