Sometimes Eric jokingly calls me a control freak. I prefer the term "worrier," but his description is probably more accurate, because the whole reason I worry as much as I do is because there are too many things I don't have control over. That stresses me out.
It seems the Lord is constantly trying to remind me that He's the one in control, and while I may not be able to see the whole picture, I can be assured that everything will work out in the end. If I had a nickle for every time I've witnessed the proof of this...I would have a lot of nickles. But for some reason I forget that huge bank of nickles whenever I run into a wall in my life.
Right now there's so much up in the air and I have really been freaking out. I seem to forget that thousands of people have been in practically identical situations to mine and have found their way through and survived the years of grad school just fine and lived on to tell the tale.
I don't really know the purpose of this post; maybe I just wanted to get it off my chest and for some reason felt like that merited a public forum for some personal issue that would probably be better off written about in a journal...Anyways, a long time ago I saved this quote as a draft in my Gmail account so I would always have it close by. It usually has a good impact on me, but today it hit me in the face like a brick. I know Eric and I will make it through and everything will work out--when and how, I don't know. But I do know I will be a better person because of everything we're experiencing.
"We live in a day when the adversary stresses on every hand the philosophy of instant gratification. We seem to demand instant everything, including instant solutions to our problems. We are indoctrinated that somehow we should always be instantly emotionally comfortable. When that is not so, some become anxious--and all too frequently seek relief from counseling, from analysis, and even from medication. It was meant to be that life would be a challenge. To suffer some anxiety, some depression, some disappointment, even some failure is normal. Teach your members that if they have a good, miserable day once in a while, or several in a row, to stand steady and face them. Things will straighten out. There is a great purpose in our struggle in life."
Boyd K. Packer, “Solving Emotional Problems in the Lord’s Own Way,” Ensign, May 1978, 91
4 comments:
oh man! I didn't know you guys had it like that too...at least we came with a place to live but zero furniture or anything...all our stuff in provo.
man, we could have gmail chatted at least...I'm glad I am not the only one who blog stalked my way through the summer :)
good luck...I know we're out of here in two weeks...I heard somewhere that ivy can get rid of smells...but we and more specifically I, totally feel ya
have a great weekend! :) I liked the quote in your blog. There is another one I like from Richard G. Scott "Temple Worship: the source of strenght and power in times of need" (last april)
"we should never complain,
when we are living worthily,
about what happens in our lives."
also, "hope you know, we had a hard time".
yep, we'll make it through okay!
Oh, yes, Cindy, I know. I worry way more than I ever let on. I worry about everything. I make myself sick over stuff that's just not important. I guess that's not exactly advice. Just letting you know I understand how you feel.
I am the worrier for our little family, so I can definitely relate! Challenges can feel even tougher when you are pregnant and consequently more emotional. Being between jobs is something that most of us stress about. I don't think you should worry that you are worried about it. Great quote! That is a great motivator and something I should read often!
Thanks, Cindy. I needed that. And I'm more than twice your age and definitely NOT pregnant!
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