2nd Entry

For those of you out there that don't know me that well and are reading this this will be interesting. So, I've been wondering the last couple of days why it is so easy for me to know what/who I want and yet so difficult for those that I want to show any decisively good action towards me. I hope that that makes sense, cuz yes they are nice to me and maybe a little bit of flirtatious goodness goes on, but never a shared smile or some physical contact coming from their side. Sometimes I'd like to be like another person and just do my own thing and go home and focus on myself and only my friends(that I have no interest in building a romantic relationship with) in hopes that a girl will appear knowing that wants and is fascinated by me. That sure would switch things around.

I sometimes think that women in general wait for the guy to initiate almost to an excruciating extent at least for me. I would love to and often do initiate or whatever that means a relationship with a girl.

It also seems that the girls that I like as of late just don't have a clear picture of what they want or maybe I'm just not doing a good enough job of showing them that I might possibly be just what they want. I don't know.

I was asking some friends about good date ideas and they gave some good ones, so I'll report on whether or not they worked out on my dates.

Ok, so off the subject of ladies, I paid my own tuition this year for the first time in my life. That is pretty amazing to me, cuz that is definitely a big boy thing to do. I'm also seeing how quick my finances can be snatched away in worthy causes. Budgets are great and I know that I've got to get on that if I want to survive this semester and somehow come up with enough to pay next semester's tuition.

I've been working on finding a good job, but they are not calling me back, so I may have to look for another job that will give me some financial support this semester.

Speaking of finances, I have found that there is a fantastic Italian Gelato Cafe on Center Street that makes me happy, but also takes $5.35 out of my pocket every time that I try and share it with a young lady. I've got to set aside a budget for that place too, cuz that could sneak up on me and drain my pocket in no time.

I hope that those that read this enjoyed it and can sympathize with some of the exciting and challenging pressures that spin and whip and whirl around me. This is a blog, so its like a journal of sorts to me. If your reading this and you feel a crazy urge to give me advice then send me an email, but don't call me with an attitude of me doing it all wrong, cuz that bugs me...alot. Whelp, that is as good a blog entry as any.